Post by rayancaleb on Jan 23, 2018 5:04:41 GMT -8
Hi,
I was raised going to church until my dad died of cancer when i was 11. After that my life has been nothing but heartbreak and chaos. Im 30 now and about a year ago i met someone who helped reintroduce me to Christ. He has one of the strongest testimonies i have ever heard but yet just landed himself in jail facing decades behind bars. I just dont understand how God finally started to get through to me and then removed him from me when im still so unsure and doubtful lacking a true testimony of my own. I want to feel that conviction more than anything in the world but i feel like im 11 years old again and my dad just died and im lost in the wind. I know i need to learn how to put God first but i dont know how to make myself feel something i dont feel. I continue to sin and struggle with addiction and depression and have this aching hole in my heart.
Thanks,
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I was raised going to church until my dad died of cancer when i was 11. After that my life has been nothing but heartbreak and chaos. Im 30 now and about a year ago i met someone who helped reintroduce me to Christ. He has one of the strongest testimonies i have ever heard but yet just landed himself in jail facing decades behind bars. I just dont understand how God finally started to get through to me and then removed him from me when im still so unsure and doubtful lacking a true testimony of my own. I want to feel that conviction more than anything in the world but i feel like im 11 years old again and my dad just died and im lost in the wind. I know i need to learn how to put God first but i dont know how to make myself feel something i dont feel. I continue to sin and struggle with addiction and depression and have this aching hole in my heart.
Thanks,
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